Brokenness and disappointment are vital parts of my story, as it is with all of us. It's only in our brokenness and sin that we realize our need for the living God...in our pain where we see God's will unfolding...we are not meant to be permanent residents here on Earth, but are made and meant to be with our heavenly Father.

This Sunday is Father's Day, and this has always been a hard holiday for me.  Unlike most people in the congregation, I don't have an earthly father that I can or want to celebrate. So I often ignore Father's day festivities and attend a worship service somewhere else, just so people won't feel sorry for me. The person I knew to be my biological father was nothing more than that, just someone whose genes I inherited.

Even before my parents split up, he was never around. I don't remember what it was like to have someone affirm my worth, encourage me, and wipe my tears. At school, I had to be content with making Father's Day gifts for my brother or having no one else to give them to. Growing up without a father, few tried to take on that role, but none could. I was broken. 

I sought my self-worth in and tried to cover up my loneliness with relationships, busyness, and a myriad of things that would keep my mind and heart occupied. But at the root of it, I was still empty, longing for something that I did not have nor thought I could ever obtain. I would never admit these things aloud as doing so would force me to admit my brokenness, and my need for God. But He saved me. Out of His great love and compassion, He put my name in the book of life and redeemed me, and each day, He is working through my pain to glorify Himself all the more.

Brokenness and disappointment are vital parts of my story, as it is with all of us. It's only in our brokenness and sin that we realize our need for the living God to restore our broken spirits by His love. It's in our pain where we see God's will unfolding and Him working out His promises. It reminds us that we are not meant to be permanent residents here on Earth, but are made and meant to be with our heavenly Father.

My heart longs for home. It longs to be complete and overflowing with the love of Christ instead of being damaged by sin. It longs for Him. And even though every Father's Day, I may ache at what is not, and what could have been, I am hopeful because I am waiting for the place that God is preparing for me. When I am ready to meet Him face to face in His holiness and glory, He will "wipe away every tear from [my] eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying; and there shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away...'Behold, I make all things new.' " (Revelation 21:4-5a)

Be encouraged, my friends. Even though we will continue to suffer and endure hardships in this life, God is in the business of fixing broken things. He will continue to put our shattered pieces of glass back together because "He who promised is faithful" (Hebrews 11:11c).